Healing Kit

Since Delilah’s departure, grief has taken her place as my constant companion. I am becoming very familiar with grief, and it’s fickleness. Grief is fluid and ever changing. It is never concrete. It can have you feeling despair one moment and peace the next. It is a constant flowing river that I am riding, until I feel strong enough to put my two feet back on the ground again. To be honest, I have no idea when that might be, and that’s okay. I am grateful that I have the time in my life to really dive into the healing process and go wherever the river takes me. To my surprise, the gaping wound that left me broken a few weeks ago is beginning to mend itself back together.

The most terrifying thing about life is loss. We will all experience the loss of a loved one. When we do, we are given a very important choice. We can put the pieces back together and live life to the fullest, or we can let life slip away from us. I think it’s important to always remember that our loved one wants us to be happy, and continue on our Earth journey.

I miss Delilah desperately, every day. I miss being pregnant with her. It was the happiest and most meaningful time of my life so far. But God had a plan and there was no way to alter it. She has gone, and I’ve been given that choice. I want my life. I miss being happy. So I’ve begun to laugh a bit more and not feel guilty. She wants that for me.

This ordeal left me stripped of all emotions. Literally. I remember feeling like I’d never care about anything else again. I’m beginning to recognize distinct things in my life that are huge components of my healing process. I like to think of these components as a “Healing Kit” for grief. Everyone’s healing kit will be different. But these are the components of mine at the moment:

Time

Support

Relationships

Therapy

Exercise

Nutrition

Music

Writing

Spirituality

Reading

Animals

Nature

Laughter

Meditation

I try to focus on a couple of these things every day, and they have the power to save me in a weak moment. Focusing on my healing instead of my sorrow, is definitely helping to soothe the pain of heartbreak, and to move me forward with a happy mind and peaceful heart.

2 thoughts on “Healing Kit

  1. Time does heal all wounds!! Georgia, I love you!! Each day women do survive, we stand together pray together cry together, and with our strength manage to pull through toughest times, and yes, laugh together!! You are one beautiful woman, and a tough one too!! You deserve to have piece of mind, but you will never stop feeling the angel Delilah”s wings wrapped around you so gracefully with protection, and comfort!! Her halo shines so bright with the colors of a rainbow. The cloud she sits upon are being carried by two white doves, which floats across the heavens, observing what lies below. Look up with a smile, and she will smile back at you, and at night she will have a twinkel in her eyes!! Always……

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